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| so summer session 2 starts..
tuesday and thursdays i have class from like 10am-9pm
GROSS. 
i decided to take 3 classes cuz 1)so i can graduate on time. 2) it was cheaper to take 3 classes in session 2 than to split it up
lame.
im gonna miss waking up later and playing with my puppy
the past couple weeks ive been bonding with my puppy. im gonna miss him while im at school 
boo! :[
-sara 
ps. plus gas prices are still expensive and i have to effing drive to irvine and back all the time? the hell..
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| so today there was an earthquake
i was watching TV. siopao fell asleep next to me and i fell asleep.
2 minutes later i hear the house shaking and wake up and i feel it and see everything in the living room shaking so i sat up in the chair and i remember saying "OH MY GOD" and i grabbed siopao and just held him
and i just looked at everything shaking and i wanted to run to deyos room cuz he was sleeping to see if he was ok but i didnt wanna stand up lol
so after it stopped i went to deyo and he was ok. he was sleeping and he said when it started shaking he jus woke up and looked at everything shaking while he was still in bed
my mom has swarovski crystals. some fell over but luckily they didnt break. omg thats so expensive.. those are like years and years of christmas/birthday/mothersday gifts lol
and then i realized
i have no idea what to do during an earthquake.
i learned ur supposed to get under a table or under a doorway
but hten i got an email that actually says not to do that cuz ur more likely to get hurt so ur supposed to get on the floor in fetal position
oh well
that was kinda crazy today
and the rest of the day i ate a lot and slept.
-sara
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| what i read on perezhilton:
This is so sad, yet touching.
Reece Fleming was diagnosed with leukaemia back in 2004 when he was just 4 years old.
He battled the disease for years until this May, when doctors gave the 8 year old boy only a few weeks to live.
The family decided to try and help him achieve most of his goals
before he would pass. And one of those was to marry his school
sweetheart, Elleanor Purgslove.
Reece's mother said
"When we found out that we only had a few weeks with him we tried to do
absolutely everything with him that we could. Him and Ellie had been
'special friends' for a couple of years but then they broke up. We said
we'd have a pirate party, and Ellie came. She went to visit Reece a few
times in hospital as well."
Then during a recent laser tag party, Reece "proposed" to his little friend.
After she accepted, their parents arranged a pretend wedding at Reece's home
The families went out to dinner in the mayor's limousine and organized the wedding with rings and even a fictional certificate.
The kids got married on July 4th. And Reece told his mom, "I can go now," after his wedding wish had been fulfilled. His mom added, "He was so proud of her, and we were proud of them both."
The following day after the wedding, Reece died at home with his family.
Soooooo sad!
During the funeral, the mourners followed a horse-draw hearse on foot.
His mom added, "Even on the Saturday that he died, he got out of bed
and walked to the sofa. He always tried walking, right to the end, so
we thought if he walked for us then we would walk for him."
What an amazing little boy. daaaaang. thats crazy. so yesterday i finally hung out with charmaine & ray
and today i spent the day with sheilla
and later tonight i get to see tin cuz he got back from cancun!
life is good.
i love my best friends
-sara
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| i dont expect anyone to read this because this is really long. its more of a personal thing because i have a lot on my mind and need to let it out
thank you
-sara
I have really good memory when it comes to my childhood. I can tell you about my birthday parties, the day I got tested by my soon-to-be kindergarten teacher to get into St. Joseph, the day that my mom made me give the principal of St. joes a big box of siopaos for the faculty as a thank you for accepting me to that school, my first day of kindergarten, the time i cheated on a test but didnt know it was cheating, the third grade play, the games me and my brothers used to play, the first time i met brian my cousin whom i hated but now consider him as another brother, what happened in 5th grade, 7th grade, 8th grade, freshman year of highschool
seriously. tell me an age after 3 1/2 or 4 and i can tell you a memory. CLEARLY with loots of detail. I dont know why, but I thank God that I have this gift.
And if someone asks me to think about childhood, there is one person whos been there.
my lola.
So my lola.... her name is Tranquilina Solis... people call her lola Tentay.. I just call her lola.
she was born july 1, 1911.
because its 12:53 am on july 2, that means yesterday was her 97th birthday. instead of cake, we sat in a church.
On thursday, june 26, 2008, my lola passed away.
she was born in 1911 in the philippines. had many brothers and sisters. one of her sisters, we call Lola Upeng, is my mom's mom.
Lola Upeng had 8 kids, my mom being the youngest. when my mom was a baby, her dad died. Lola Upeng couldnt take care of all 8 kids, so Lola Tentay adopted my mom for awhile.
my mom lived with lola tentay ( and her husband and her daughter, my aunt, tita lily) but still visited her real mom all the time too.
my mom moved to the US with a couple of her sisters and her brother and Lola and her husband, lolo, came too.
when my mom and dad had my older brother, Lester, lola helped take care of him while my parents work.
Lester was, is, and will always be my lola's favorite.
a couple years later me and deyo were born. my lola raised us. my mom worked part time, so she would leave in the morning and come back by 2ish. my dad worked full time. during the time my parents were not home and me and deyo didnt have school, my lola was there.
I watched TV with her, she cooked for us, we ate with her, we talked with her. everything.
she ironed our st. joes uniforms for us. she made us breakfast all the time. she made the best filipino food. she gave us money. during holidays, she gave me and my brothers more money than all my cousins and told us not to tell. she loved price is right. she loved baseball. she loooooved the lakers.
one time, when i was like 4.. i was standing on a stool washing my hands in the sink and she was standing next to me so she can carry me down when i finished... instead, i jumped on her and tried to slide down her like how firemen slide down poles... she didnt think it was that funny.
one time, when me deyo and lester were young, we kept playing and we were loud and my mom and lola were sleeping. my mom woke up and told us to be quiet. she was mad. me lester and deyo kept on being loud so she told us to go to her room. we stood in line and she yelled at us for being loud (she came from work and needed a nap) and then she took her slipper and told us to hold out our hands. she slapped lesters hands with her slipper. she slapped deyos hand. when it came to my turn, I RAAAAAAN like crazy and ran straight to my lola. my lola woke up and i told her i didnt wanna get slapped and i was crying.. so she comforted me... aaand i never got slapped haha.
she lived with us monday-friday. and then saturday morning she would go back to ontario to stay with tita lily and her tita lily's husband. [lolo died before i was born]
one summer, during junior high, i spend EVERYDAY that summer watching golden girls with my lola for a whole hour. 5pm. it was a pretty good show. but me and my lola bonded over that.
i used to put lotion on her back cuz she couldnt reach.
she always had the best skin on her face cuz she used this cream every night... i think it was like.. ponds or something
me and deyo used to do the carlton dance for her. she would laugh....then deyo actually became good at dancing. lol
every morning before going to school we would say in tagalog..but i cant spell so in english: "we're leaving now" and she'll say "adios!"
my older brother loves pizza. so he would say to her "lola, gusto ko ng pizza" [i want pizza] or "gusto ko ng pera" [i want money] she made fun of him cuz thats all he can say in tagalog.
she always wanted me to get pierced ears. so i did before my senior year in high school and showed it to her and she was happy.
she always told me to take piano lessons. we didnt have money for it so i learned how to read notes and taught myself and i learned less than half of the turkish march.
she approved that i worked at starbucks.
my junior year of high school my lola fell. after being someone who was always awake at like 5 or 6am in the morning to cook and clean and being in bed by 8-9, she became someone who always had to stay in bed because the fall damaged her. she couldnt even open up one of her hand all the way cuz her fingers got messed up
i cried so hard when i saw her in bed. she started talking about seeing people..people who had died a long time ago.
she eventually got moved to a convalescent home because the doctor said tita lily couldnt take care of her anymore and my lola needed nurses and doctors.
we visited her every other day for the first couple months. i only spoke to her in tagalog because for some reason i thought that was the only way she'd understand me, even though she watched Bold and the Beautiful all the time and knew english well. it broke my heart everytime we left because I knew..and usually she made it clear..that she didnt wanna be there and she wanted to go home but there was nothing we could do.
time went on and she was in bed all the time. and we visited her every week
time went on and i could tell she was getting weaker. sometimes we visited her and she was already sleeping. our visits became less and less.
i could have visited her a couple weeks ago.. but instead i went out. lester and deyo visited her but said she was already asleep. so i told myself its ok cuz if i went, she would have been sleeping anyways
but i still felt guilty.
on thursday around 12, 1ish i saw a picture of her cuz my moms screensaver are pictures.
and i thought to myself, i better visit her or i might regret it.'
a couple hours later my mom told me that lola passed away around 3ish pm.
and now i dont know how to feel. because i feel that lola wouldnt want me to feel guilty. i think she wants me to be happy because she loves me. but sometimes i still feel guilty for not visiting her enough
i dont even rememeber when the last time i saw her alive was.
im thinking easter but i dont know..
and its weird cuz the past couple years, she wasnt with me everyday..but she was always on my mind..and even though shes gone, i still cry. and i think cuz i miss her...even though i didnt see her everyday the past couple of years, it was was nice to know that she was there. but now shes not here... i dunno..
you know, it was because of her that i became interested in filipino culture. because of her stories and her ways of life. she was so facinating, so beautiful inside and out.
yesterday was her birthday. i think shes celebrating with lolo and all her brothers and sisters..and with God. did i mention she prayed everyday? i think when she lived with us, she prayed the rosary everyday..
in a couple hours she will be buried. me and my brothers are giving a eulogy.
i have NO idea what to say. tita lily said to keep it short but i can go on forever. what should i say? theres so much i could say.. and would i even be able to say it without breaking down? im crying right now and all im doing is typing. how can i verbally tell people about my relationship with lola?
I want to dedicate everything to her. I want to make her proud because she is a big part of my life. she was always there for me. ALWAYS. and she will always be in my heart.
I love you lola
sleep in peace
i miss you.
july 1, 1911-june 26, 2008
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